So today was quite an emotional day in many ways. My grandma is *LOTR quote for you nerds out there*...her life seems thin, like butter stretched over too much bread. I went to visit her for one last time before going off to college next week & all she did was complain about how horrible things are at the age she's at & how she wishes she had my energy. I give her a lot of respect & credit though for she is pretty damn old, but still I mean if this was your last time seeing YOUR granddaughter for a while wouldn't you at least try to act positive? I mean yeah, I'm sure being old sucks balls majorly. I don't even want to think about growing old because it would probably lead me into a spiral of warped depression, but still a negative attitude at any point in life will only make things worse. I'm trying to see things from her perspective. It's hard for me being so young. Maybe I have no place to say. I don't know this is just my point of view on the whole thing.

Emotional crack part II: Hanging out with my boyfriend today. I KNOW that things will be fine even with a 45 minute commute to see each other. I just broke. I don't know I just think I'm going to miss him more than I thought. It'll be hard from the beginning but I'm sure I'll grow into this like anything else. I'm sure I will get a lot of school work to fill my time & my time missing him will be at a minimum. I will still miss him dearly, I'm just hoping to distract myself as much as possible.

Blah. Sooo excited to be leaving this town. 5 more days.